Monday, June 2, 2008

Going back. Again.


This love/hate.
This on again/off again.
The longest standing love affair of my life.

When will I get it right?

Every damn love song could be applied here.

Well, maybe not Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go.

Then again....

I seriously doubt I am the only one who has struggled with this over and over and over again.

It drives me nuts.

I wish I could walk away.

I wish I could dive in head first.

Anywhere but in the middle.

This limbo...my purgatory.

A handful of outings in the last year.

Then one outing in crappy conditions, and I am all in.

Again.

There should be a 12 step program.

Here we go.

For the last time.

Again.

1 comment:

Fish said...

I didn't surf all year this year. Fuel was too expensive. It hurts just for the "nature buzz" was missing.